What would life be if my nervous system was fully relaxed all the time? And I felt safe. I knew that I was safe. My surroundings show that I'm safe. What would my life be like if I just had an inner sense of happiness? An inner sense of knowing everything would be okay. An inner sense of serenity.

I feel like this is my normal state. 

I'm being ultra exclusive with my time and the people I am around. 

You reject the npcs and the simulation offers better people

I like being in observation mode. The npcs are clichés and stereotypes. one dimensional with very little substance to offer. I can predict their personalities with 100% accuracy. 

Someone solicits their unwanted, cliche, gaslighting spiritual advice I've heard a million times. I can accurately predict their race, the fact that they are from a rural small town, how inbred and unremarkable they look, how unsuccessful in life they are. I check their social media profile and I am right about everything. 

There's the bitter low income white male in toronto. You go to an event, and they really want to talk to you but don't know how. They say "you're not supposed to stand there" and go into a monologue of self appointed authority to feel some kind of power, just like his ancestors before him. he's programmed to be that way. a classic npc. I have learned to leave the convo without even politely excusing myself. It's not worth the breath. I just stare past them like they don't even exist and walk away while they are in the middle of talking, and they end up looking stupid. "I'm not supposed to stand here?" I think to myself, "Ok cool, I will go where there's some hot Black and Brown women and hang with the baddies." I win.

Then there's the self hating Indian man stereotype. Energy vamp to the extreme. He stays out the sunlight so his mom can write "fair skin" in his arranged marriage bio data. No sunlight means he is desperate for energy and he seeks women to drain. He's so stupid, he's been brainwashed to think tan skin is unattractive when it's literally so beautiful. I was sitting in the sun today and admiring how it glows like gold in the sun. this type is obsessed with me for some reason even though we have nothing in common. he wants me to heal him from his generational trauma, yet simutaneously doesn't respect Desi women at all. The ultimate dysfunctional loser and waste of time. I have learned that if he won't leave you alone, use him for whatever convenience he can offer and then ditch asap. Don't take anything he says seriously. it's all self hate mumbo jumbo programmed into his npc brain. Laugh at him. Yell at him if you must. then block and bounce.

toronto is so boring

it's a city that's 99.99% npcs. very few people can articulate an original thought. It's best to be as emotionally detached as possible. 

I was sitting in the sun today thinking about how beautiful my skin is. I was reading a former playboy bunny's memoir about how she thought Black and Brown people were so beautiful and how she wished she was naturally tanned. I thought about how growing up, the white canadian kids would mercilessly bully me for the same things they now pay a lot of money for. I am naturally tanned, I have naturally big lips and thick, long, fast growing hair. I look like this for free. Melanin keeps me young looking forever. The sun actually likes me. In fact, it loves me. My skin naturally shimmers in the sun with what looks like gold particles. You can buy it at sephora, it's called bronzer. My skin naturally has that effect. I can't believe these jealous yt canadians were trying to bully me into thinking I was unnattractive when I'm so hot, and I've been beautiful my whole life. And then you have these brainwashed self hating bipoc npcs who provide free labor to continue this agenda. 

Life feels like a weird game, which is almost most certaintly likely what it is.

If you fall for the brainwash, you lose. If you retain your original thoughts, you win. If you hate yourself and everybody the matrix tries to teach you to hate, you lose. If you love yourself, you win. 

I have never met a self hating person, or a racist I would ever want to trade places with.

But I have met self hating npcs who have tried to destiny swap with me. 

Everybody who has ever been immortalized as a hero, from Malcolm X, to MLK jr, to Rosa Parks, to Harriet Tubman, to Michelle Obama and Mamdani, is a person who loves themselves, loves their BIPOC community, and works towards equality and progress. 

I view these people as main characters. I view myself as this as well.

Are there some people who don't think about such things? They wander around aimlessly, pursuing npc type things with npc type thoughts? at best, they try to distract others, especially the main characters. It happens so often, that they can classified, studied, and either avoided or used. 

I'm so bored of the npcs tho. 

I just want to be around main characters.

I want to be in a large community of us. likeminded people. People who want to do important, life changing things to alter the course of humanity towards a positive revolution. 

Capitalism is garbage. so is patriarchy and racism. it's all made up and stupid a f. a waste of brain processing power which could be used towards creating a type 1 civilization, where we live in ecological sustainability, abundance for all, and happy, easy, and fun lives. 

I have experience in the govt, from 2019-2022 where I infiltrated the NDP, which is the center left party of Canada. Money is just a made up thing. Politicians print boat loads of it and give it to their friends. There is socialism in the upper parts of the false heirarchy. People who scream that socialism is evil yet the first to line up for a secretive govt hand out. It's all just npcs doing what they do best: hindering progress for main characters to win the game.

I want to win the game. Obviously. 

I want to talk about adam smith. can we discuss what a classic run of the mill npc name that is. he wrote the wealth of nations while living with his mommy, in 1776. 1776 bro. classic npc capitalist text dictating life in 2026. stupid af. 

I am a bipoc socialist. The govt has money to house and feed everybody. 

TBH, I think socialism will be a thing within my lifetime. the system just lags and is a little slow. it should've been a thing before I was even born. So many stupid rules exist that should've been done away with a long time ago. 

The run of the mill, lower tier npcs wil try to interfere with main character progress, but then there is another type that will elevate main characters. Are they a higher level of npc or main character adjacent, some sort of supporting actor in this movie of life. They see the value of main characters. They see a person with momentum and wanna be around for the ride. They wanna be the person u invite to the red carpets and shout out in magazine interviews. They wanna partner up and do business. They wanna be on your team and help you. I honestly love that type so much. In toronto aka lower tier npc land, that is very rare. These supporting character types, from what I have experienced, are in LA. And I am a supporting character to them as well. It's a reciprocal, win-win scenario that is too advanced for toronto to comprehend. it rarely happens here. 

I don't think people realize how magical and 5D ish gets when Black and Brown progressive women are in control. LA during the Biden-Harris era was so magical. Manifestations were instant. I would think something and it would happen later that day. Mexico is another example. 

But to be honest, if the NPCS wanna live in yt patriarchy, let them. I just believe people like me should have an alternative.

If Kamala Harris became president, the racists could move to Canada. Canada loves racism. All the Black and Brown baddies can move to Hollywood. And life goes on happily ever after. 

Canada will never have a Mamdani, Kamala Harris, Michelle Obama, Rihanna or Beyonce. It's colonized, npc land of the boring. 

Back to my original point, I just want to be around likeminded people who relax my nervous system. 

If you want a peaceful, socialist, bipoc queer matriachy, come with me. Let's make some magic.

 

Today is MJ's bday. Happy birthday to the best to ever do it, Michael Jackson King of Pop. 

I had a weird dream about Oliver Tree. 

I dreamt I had to go DJ at this venue and I didn't want to. Normally, before a show, I organize a list of music I'm finna play and practice what Imma do. I did none of that, and I was nervous and didn't wanna do the show. But knowing me, if I say Imma do it, Imma do it, AND I have played shows where I did not organize a list and practice, and tbh it was one of my best shows. So even in dreamland, I knew I had to play this show and it would be awesome, but I was hanging out with Oliver Tree and I was enjoying it so much I didn't want to leave. 

We were making out and cuddling lol. We have the same taste in music and were enjoying each other's company. He gave me a giant thing of gold coins. He was like "GO PLAY THAT SHOW". And I was l i k e ....

O K

And I did and I was having fun and it was going well. The venue was weird a f but it was a good show. 


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